Bin a While

It's been a while since I posted. Our internet was cut off because Alex procrastinated about sorting it. A long story and argument short, it's back in with only a few complications.

I joined newcastle LGBT society and the clay pigeon shooting society, the people on LGB are really nice and I think the men's rep has got the hots for me, but I can't tell.

Went out on the lad's night with the lgb boys. Durham was there too and I ended up with a guy called kieran who was really nice, big eyes, cute face. Brought him back to mine and we fooled around. But I got fucking blue balls! at least he got off.

In the morning Rach called for me and I let her in. She looked into my room and her jaw dropped then she got herself together and said hi. He made a good impression on her and we walked him to the Jesmond metro and said goodbye. I texted him later to see if he made it back alright and he did, but no reply after i told him I had a good time. Have a feeling I'll bump into him again and it'll be awkward :/

We're doing a secret santa between us maths geeks, just 11 of us. I got the pretty girly girl, Holly so I got her a hangover cure kit complete with eyemask and headache balm. I went doubly over the limit (of £5) but Rach said I should so she wouldn't feel bad if she spent a bit extra. But since I spent so much I made my own wrapping paper using photoshop.

I'm also a really bad friend as I bought a ticket to manchester with LGB peeps for a weekend when I said I'd go to a friend's birthday party, camping in the lake district. Gonna try to fob her off, telling her that I can't go as I'm going home and then to machester (to cover for any facebook photos which show up) for some family event.

Had my birthday last weekend. I celebrated the week before at Eric Prydz in Digital (nightclub). Grace came up to see me and come out. Took methadone, crazy crazy times. Grace didn't want any, so I still have hers in my wallet, I feel really paranoid around police now.

Not enjoying not being a teenager though I'm consoling myself saying I'm only twenteen.

Anyway... toodles

Disappointing

Had a date last night... Yeah exactly. Met the guy on grindr and he asked for a date ages ago and i agreed because i was trying to get over T at the time. He was really nice, Gareth from newcastle. Met him in revolution and I got there early and saw my friend Jack there with his girlfriend. So I talked to them and admitted what I was there for. When Gareth turned up, we pretended not to know each other but I would shoot some looks over and they would shoot some back. It made me feel safer, although I didn't need to feel that safe as Gareth was a real queen. Spends all of his money before he earns it etc.

I came clean about only wanting to be friends and he seemed kinda upset. Told him he was being naive, I think he took it ok.

not doing any grindr dates again.

Keepin' it real

Sam x

No Internet!

I moved into the flat on thursday. There are teething problems though. Like the heating and hot water not being hot, but the landloard is sorting that. Oh and NO INTERNET! but the neighbours were kind enough to "lend" theirs. However I figure virgin wouldn't have disconnected the last people, so I plugged in te modem and router and fiddled with some settings and IT WORKS! I had a frankenstein moment of it's alive but thankfully it didn't last long
George and Alex move in on monday. Got to put alex's speakers back, i borrowed them for my amp because my logitech 5.1's have blown a fuse.
Anyway I've seen a bunch of my maths friends and we watched the derren brown thing. I didn't get stuck but my vision did go grey but it was prob just one of those optical illusion's effects like this:
they turquoise disappears if you stare at the dot.

Gonna have a go at making bolognese sauce soon. Wish me luck

xxx

Fuck You

I asked T why he said "let's keep this between us" gave me some mumbo jumbo about not wanting us to get reputations and how nothing was gonna come of it also that i shouldn't tell laura cos she'd boot off. By this time I'd convinced myself I wanted him *stupid*. Went to a student night on thursday called cannonball and did my predrinks at laura's. We met T there and I didn't even want to make eye contact cos it felt awkward. Laura got pretty drunk and talked about me and T and i was like "he told you?!" she said "yeah he's my best friend".

That's fine that he's her bff but he told me not to tell her hardly fair. She said that he was

protecting me, more like protecting himself. Anyway I'm over him now more because he turned me against him. He's gone back to uni now so I don't have to worry about bumping into him now :D

Went to my last Saturgay, didn't pull for the first time haha was too busy fixating on someone elses BF. Think Mitch Hewer but smaller and cuter

Mitchell Scott Hewer

The problem was he was round the arms of Richard a guy from my old school who still can't believe I'm gay. It shocked me to see them together because richard's not a looker like this guy. His nickname was Neville, as in Neville Longbottom from Harry Potter. The world is strange.

There was a guy who I was interested in, tall ginger and cute but he was trying it on with everyone. He kissed 3 boys so suddenly I wasn't so interested, he ended up leaving with some really short boy I thought it was quite funny cos if he hadn't been going around everyone who took a second look he could have had some pretty good stuff.

It's my last week at home! I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow and thinking about packing haha. So excited to go back to Uni. Had a load of texts saying people are back and looking for things to do bit jealous but my time will come... SOON!

Pulled

Last night was really good! One of the best nights of the year so far... Me and the rents were invited to a beef rendang night at the stark's house, they invited so many people! Put on a big asian meal just out of nowhere.

rendang

Laura's friend T (not gonna use his real name) was over and I said i was going to Cornerhouse (Saturgay) tonight and he came along. He's one of the nicest people I know, he's also gay. We met up with my friends in The Oak and I saw Danielle there (junior coach at the rowing club). We went to Chouse danced a bit and got some drinks, T went off to find his friend at Empire but then came back. By that time my drinks had caught up with me and i wasn't feeling so good.

T took me home and i said he could stay at mine as its a bit of a trek to his from mine. I let him in and we were barely inside the door when he plants a kiss on me, which is a complete surprise to me. But not an unwelcome one, we then ahem roll around on my bed in various states of dress and have some fun ;) i also remember him biting me, sexy lol.

He then left at 4:50am. But he texted me later saying apologies for last night saying he was really really drunk and to keep it between us (obv). I had the time of my life :(

He's fucking hot and smart which doesn't come around that often and he's also pretty much the same age as me, which is all of the things I look for. I can't decide if I want to persue a relationship with him or not and if I do, how do I approach him about it? and what if he doesn't want one? :s

T

i did see Matt again but since i was with T, didn't really look twice.

I was also up at 7:20 to go cox but later at the juniors I was deemed too drunk to single after I had just steered a Four for 12 fucking kilometers.

On The Pull

Going out tonight to saturgay again. See if i can't work my magic again ;)

Been going on Grindr with my iPod touch but all i get is requests for sex or pictures of cocks :| One guy was trying to convince me to be his slave but i was being way too diplomatic in my responses so in the end i had to be really blunt and i felt really bad :(

Although i did meet a nice guy who is in Newcastle and he went to my old school! Strange things happen on the internet.

Anyway, wish me luck!

Matt

nothing happened between me and matt :( he found me on fb on monday or something. I sent him a message saying if he was going to saturgay again that i would see him there, he replied non-commitally and later his status said he was going to a house party. I didn't bother going in the end as i haven't been sleeping well lately.

Went to Northallerton today

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Mum wanted stuff from lakeland so i tagged along. It's a nice place but most stuff was closed cos it was a bank holiday. I got a knife from lakeland for the flat, I've been old to get one good knife and keep it sharp, so I'm looking for a sharpener. I also skipped breakfast to go out too so i was starving by the time we were leaving, popped into M&S for some bakery snacks, got some italian bread with cheese and onions on (yum yum). The guy on the counter looked about 16/17 and had brilliant blue eyes so i turned on the charm (stood there looking like a mong) and paid for my bread. As I walked out i wished I'd given him my number :( He seemed interested in hindsight. Although i didn't look my best with my bed head and unshaven face.

When I got back, I decided to shave and do a bit of trimming here and there ;) but i trimmed too much on my treasure trail and now it ends prematurely lol i suck.

Anyway, rowing early again tomorrow and coxing in the evening so i wanna go to bed and get a cheeky wank in too

Hugs and kisses